Tuesday, September 30

Who Runs The Market

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Message:


Next month a large turning-point of my case will be made. Maybe those mind stealer has known what I will do, just let them know ,,, As like the words I often wrote on my Chinese site, "the open I did against the stealth they did, but I don't worry about it"

It has been decided, by dark contact between them and pretending normal and treasuring mindpower themself, that none of them dare or have to take a risk in public.

"So dark the con of Mind Attacker"
--- imitating "So dark the con of man" of the movie "The Davinci Code"

and : ) ~~~
my new fax-phone has been done.
fax/tel: 0086 020 84459514 (HKT 15:00-22:00)
(frankly, Guangzhou Telecom service is slower than other city which I stayed.)

it is a used fax by Japan (NEC SPEAX23TA).
it can automatic fax, but the guide sound is Japanese.
so don't surprise, just fax as normal.
fax/tel: 0086 020 84459514 (HKT 15:00-22:00)

tanweekly
Mar 26th, 2009
Guangzhou
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Contact Me:
post here as commendatory below (never deleted) or mail to
tanweekly@gmail.com
on Mar 20th I will make a move and apply for homephone service, and buy a fax-phone, then put the number here ....
Seems like a bookworm from my written words, but I am a real-life man. A step prepare, a step do (or "a step did, then next step do") ....
I want to go abroad for my new life, but must legal, procedural, recognized ....
I am a honest man, I don't lie ....

tanweekly
Mar 12th, 2009
Guangzhou
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Message:
I am in Hongkong now. I have the third side "MALAYSIA IMMIGRATION" Single Entry Visa as a transit passenger of Hongkong, so I am allowed stay maximum 7 days by Hongkong Import Law ....
I have wrote some English words spread in Hongkong, see the commendatory 15# of this page.
I cant have many money to stay 7 days. I will remark in the commendatory before I leaving.

tanweekly
Mar 4, 2009
Hongkong
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(Oct. 1st, 2008 post 3rd / total 3)

Who Runs The Market

( this is maybe a last post of inland. on next i wish i will deal with my passport smoothly, will go abroad smoothly, will settle down smoothly --- then, just by then i will continue this BLOG, maybe i also can update every two months or unregularly about my actual life )


. Freedom --- Do we still need or not .

Last post, will without "Mind Control" .... Everyone has a model about the earth world which runs best, me too. Here I want to talk about a popular topic --- "Economy", a current problem as similar as that "Mind Control problem" connects a basic human faith --- "Freedom". The free market, the free world and the free human --- Do we still need or not ?

We all know the financial crisis throught whole the world, and the US Treasury secretary, HENRY PAULSON, had opened the government checkbook and was poised to spend $700 billion try to end it.

Maybe as truth as the US govt said, "this is not a action that we want to take, and a action we need to take", but I am still doubtful of feasibility and equitableness about the bailout.


FEASIBILITY:
[1] Is it effectual ?
[2] Is it the best action ?

EQUITABLENESS:
[1] Is it a right stamp that govt as a rules-maker, a judge and a player in same a market to churn up ?
[2] Do not those CEOs should answer for their market sense of the day ?
[3] Is it fair to others, to all taxpayer ?


. "Confidence" --- a panacea of stockmarket ? .

Now lots lots people take about the "Market Confidence", include govt officers, public economists, media practitioners and so on. But, what is the real meaning of "Market Confidence" they talked about ?

If their meaning is the expected return of listed companies will be steady or no more risk in current condition, I think it will easy to fix it, not only the words but also the action .... maybe govt can make some temporary policies to raise market confidence. e.g. allow the good listed companies share phase profit once a season temporarily .... so I don't believe the market will still be less the confidence !

If their meaning is everyone come back to intertwist raise the price together, so I guess soon these guys will play other a new game --- "who runs away first at right time ?".

Talk in deep, I don't understand why the "push hand" of stockmarket, a "invisible hand" of classical Economics, would be led by "expected message" but original "expected return" ? .... and the P/E ratio just shows a paper profit of the listed companies, not a dividend.

Of course some rules in constitution of listed companies are made that the listed companies "may" share profit 30 percent or other ratio to investors, but seems "must" pass throught the company directorate .... so the years ago in China stockmarket lots lots listed companies didn't share dividend to investors, or in stead of issuing A Shares Rights. And then the stockmarket administrant reenacted a new rule that the listed companies would be suspended if it didn't share any dividend in 3 years.

Thinking me personal, a non-dividend stockmarket is a gambling market, and a stockmarket which the total sharing dividend less than the trade tax of current period is also a gambling market.


. Is it effectual ? .

In this financial crisis, specially stockmarket crisis, is the bailout effectual ? I don't think so.

As my embryo theory --- "Fund to Fund" model theory in stockmarket --- of last post "Unwillingly Share My Plan and Sense", I have wrote:

"Of the gambling stockmarket, there are only two types of investors, "the prices maker" and "the prices waitor". Retail investors usually are "the prices waitors", price is not alive itself, "the prices maker" control the prices .... "the prices maker" have nature right to operate the prices down, based on that they let "the prices waitor" getting a free sail while pushing the prices up; "the prices waitor" have nature risk to uncontrol the prices, based on that they get easy money just for waiting .... "

"It should be sure that earning money of the down-dominated will be easier than the up-dominated, if all the funds are rational, professional, and no wrong operation, the down-dominated will suck dry the up-dominated."


So, perhaps the fund of govt original plan will be lost and drag down the most society resource in the future of a long time.

In fact the stockmarket was bubbled long ago, since it was led by "expected message" in stead of original "expected return".

Lots of messages jazz up the price and overdraw the future.
Now it is time to pay back !!!

Some words of mine before talked about the "intervened" free market, and listed 3 disadvantages of the Market Systemizing Self. the link bellow: http://tanweekly.blogspot.com/2006_08_01_archive.html

Some words in this article were easy to get a wrong impression, that I agree govt to intervene the free market directly.

But, this is not my own real meaning !!!

My original meaning is --- on the present day the govt should focus the free market in a different light, find out deficiencies and fix it, just like the original theorist made some market rules from pure business condition at that age .... of course throught the basic market principles to get some new market rules.

Now business developing, something changes, but most govts still be limited of pure market rules. They make themselves easy and let some companies face more difficult condition on their own. They said this "is" free market.

I don't think so. I think "Free market" is not dead, it is alive. It also wants to develop.

Maybe it is the time to create a "society types" market operating rules. e.g. the "temporary risk coverage in business" if the company or chief is threatened by terrorist .... The serving angle is business self not penal crime .... If govt cant get some helps or make a standard and open special market ways to these companies and persons, then they will make a difficult choice at a critical time ,,, so, this will not noly be a problem about market, but also a problem about country, even about things of God and Evil.

And I think insurance business is a good case about using market rules to deal with those society things.

Back to reality, maybe as truth as the US govt said if let those listed companies and CEOs keep on by free market rules, it will cover lots of people in many ways .... but I think this kind case also be showed in law:

Someone should be punished in violation of the law, but for several reasons doing it will make a impact to his family and around (e.g. he is single and get a child under age). So the judge could get a special paper to free him some hours a week playing with his child.

Remember, all of it should be under the punishment, also mean a man should pay for his action ....
(at last section I will make a summary of some ways this article touched of dealing with the crisis. Here pass over first)

By the way, recently there is also a bailout making a large noise of Chinese stockmarket to talk about. Seems it wants to be imitative of America. But they are different .... these kinds plan has long been made .... years ago when state-owned banks became commercial banks, those original bad capital have used state finance .... and months ago a typical case happened of using state finance subsidies. the listed company Sinopec has been gotten RMB 33.402 billion of state finance subsidies just to fill the hole of half year company loss ....

the news "Chinese petrochemical: relying on subsidies from the loss". its Chinese link:
http://business.sohu.com/20080826/n259208705.shtml

Take your eyes, it is pure state finance subsidies, "No Certain Back"!!! .... This large company is a public company. So how unfair to other listed companies and all of the taxpayer.


. a summary of dealing with the crisis of this article .

BASIC PREMISS:
[1] Common Understanding that anyone should pay for his action.
[2] Common Understanding that the stockmarket was bubbled. (and no back way to hope now)

TERMINATING CRISIS:
[1] About action, reference with the law case above, it shows that "Detail Control" is important to reach the whole society benefit. So maybe "dividable" and "controllable" are good. And remember that all of it should be under the punishment, or let those companies or guys pay back first.

[2] Since we can't let those market companies running its own self path because of it covering lots of people and other fields in many ways, we should not put more resource on those listed companies ,,, It will be alogical, and a plan "let those companies up first then other fields will be better" is absurd and trick ( any capital can bring market, even make a joke if someone put more capital on me I guess I will make a "T-man market" base on my academic words and gambling rates of something, maybe words, content, "Mind Control", my pure maths problem "T-Man Conjecture" or others .... )

[3] Maybe govt allow the good listed companies share phase profit once a season temporarily to raise market confidence, of course it should change some accounting principles .... effect: it will let the market led by "expected return", but "expected message".

[4] Let the investors, specially Retail investors, to clear know the basic specific risk of stockmarket. On the "speculative" market they earn money just from prices changing, and the Retail investors can't control it, they just waiting. So if Retail investors want to get a easy money this risk they have to take .... effect: of course the prices will be back closer to real value.

[5] Attach other standard "Society Employment Emergency Preplan".


. Who runs the market ? .

Who runs the market ? the govt, listed companies, those CEOs, lots of message, companies share return, Retail investors, all kinds Fund ,,, and so on, this maybe became a problem, but it is not a question this artice want to answer.

Seems the share return closer, but if the company get a destruct by man or terrorist, has it still been ? So, who runs the market ? or the market runs normal by what ? I don't give a certain answer.

But I am sure, "Freedom" --- The free market, the free world and the free human .... it is the right way to understand.

(show more my point, if we not only let ourselves free but also others, or say more earthly let everyone "feel" free, then the market will run well.)

tanweekly
Oct 1st, 2008 Shenzhen

Some Mood Words about "Mind Control"

(Oct. 1st, 2008 post 2nd / total 3)

Some Mood Words about "Mind Control":

Somethings about my rent house, almost let me make these unearthliness as my own normal --- althought I know it should not be normal --- some original neighbors of front or back building moved, their air conditions outside the windows also moved ,,, and seems get into some guys who don't go work on daytime ,,, frequent dry-cough sounds in bad taste, and almost non-sleep on night ,,, some guys seems of multi-factions around me, I do not believe the base organizations even the higher coundn't know it ,,,

They test me, FREE, in fact many "experiments" in China are free (on the other hand, didn't recently Melamine in milk also be a experiment ? ,,, It is even more far for the back of some similar old news and events of historical record)

I am used to the things --- last midnight 1:30 waked up with a start by knocked sound --- not only this rent house ....
I am used to the things --- they made a drag of train about me, of the piss feeling and going washroom on time --- their intent I had known early ....
I am used to the things --- they always can't finish their works, I will let the normal back while they be letup --- I guess it give them a mind power train quantitatively before qualitative change ....

But this time I am angry --- although I know it is a wrong way to deal with those ropy-men, maybe these days I feel worry about them spying my mind while I preparing my English words, usually they made a little knock while my mind has a crotch point ....
I am used to the things --- about midnight 1:30 of my little clock I saw it time after time, I scolded them "Do you know what time it is now ? ... Are you crazy ? ... non sleeping on night but daytime ?" --- how many times this kind words I have talked from Haikou' , Guangzhou' and to Shenzhen's rent house, maybe dozens of times even hundreds ....

Accidentally, this time a sound raised, "Hi guys, we are all right, let us begin to sleep", and some guys around made some sounds or dry-coughs return. It made me real angry.

I shout to those shadow guys, "Brainwash, Dig Head .... I know it .... Dig after dig, how useful it can be to do with me ? .... I will let you know what I can ? .... you prepare to move and hide into the crowd .... "

I am used to the things --- perhaps someone will be crazy with these --- but, I am used to the things.

So, I write down these words, and I will do more later.

(many Chinese records before, this is the first English Mood record, and attaching another Chinese post which ever got wrong show of my inland server by hackers, so I post here backup to make a copy ,,, no translated just Chinese ,,, today total post 3 pages)

tanweekly
Sep 28th, 2008


Original Chinese Characters:

昨晚又讓我撿了個"便宜",某些人又送給我一個"話頭",來讓我再記錄一下"怪聲音"之事......

我租屋周圍的"怪事",我差不多要把它當作"常態"了---但我知,這不應該成為"常態"....周圍前面後面幢的原居民都搬了,把原先窗口的空調都拆走了,,,又住進了一些白天都不上班的人,不斷沙啞的咳嗽聲顯得極為粗俗,而且晚上都好像不睡覺似的,晚上睡夢中都好像覺得有人在窺視著你,半夜驚醒大多數情況總有咳嗽聲會伴著你,,,各路"人馬"雲集在我周圍,我就不信那些基層甚至更高層的國家管理當局會不知此事,,,他們試驗我---免費的---其實中國的很多"試驗"都是免費的(從某一角度看,最近的三聚氰胺不是一次"免費"的試驗嗎?更不要說再深挖以往新聞及歷史的背面了),,,

昨晚半夜1時30分左右,又被周圍那些人敲擊聲搞醒---這我都習慣了,不只是在這裡的租屋---他們又在調教我身體的尿感及準時上廁所---這我都習慣了,這我都早知道了---我潛意識里偏不如他們意,所以好多天下來,他們還不能調教我成這個時間"自動醒"及"再上廁所"的習慣---這我都習慣了,我知道另一角度看這可能是在增進他們"自認為的功力"的一種方式---但,這次我有些發火了(可能因這幾天白天我準備英文文字,窺視在一旁的不上班的他們也是讓我很煩心),我醒來一看小鬧鐘,又是半夜1時30分左右,我又一次向他們"怒喝","有沒有搞錯,晚上不睡覺,白天睡覺啊?!"---這我都習慣了,這句話我都不知在各地說過幾十甚至可能上百遍了---想不到這次竟有人回腔"好了好了,大家睡覺吧",周圍也有些人稀稀落落地或應聲或乾咳著.TNND,我這次真的火了,"洗腦啊,挖腦啊,,,挖來挖去有什麼用,,,你們有沒有搞錯,也不打聽打聽我是誰?,,,不怕我幫你們在網上宣揚宣揚,,,這裡整一個挖腦據點,,,你們就等著快點搬家走人吧",,,,所以就發了此文.

"這我都習慣了"---可能很多人遇上這種情形都會發瘋---但,這我都習慣了---為什麼我能撐下來呢?(我想可能騷擾我的那些人"心理學"沒我學得好,雖然我也只是不學而成,自然領悟的)......

聯繫上次的相關文字,詳見9月1日的本站往事永錄,個人猜測,那些以往民間巫術者的形象,帶著裝著蟲蟲蛇蛇的瓶子,可能初入門時,也是到時準時敲擊瓶子,長期而往從而達到心神控制小蟲小蛇的生理狀況,,,畢竟察看玻璃瓶或古代盆中的小蟲小蛇的狀況要容易多了,,,過幾日的英文BLOG還會準時更新的,題目早起好了"WHO RUNS THE MARKET?"......(2008年9月28日上午上傳)

附9月1日的相關文字:
[流水帳心情] 本次"心情"也可以作為一次大膽的"猜想"....昨半夜大概2,3點樓下不知哪來的狗狂哮,聽聲音有些悽慘,聽聲音一下子似平常狗叫,一下子又象是帶著"人語"音節似的叫聲(很多動物的長叫聲其實與人語的韻律節湊是有很大區別的,有些時如聽出某些"聲響"似蘊人聲的話,往往其能區格"音節",一般動物的長叫往往是連貫的,除了鸚鵡;而田雞等的蛙類的"音節",往往明顯區別於人語聲)....忽然想到,會不會是由於被人"意念力洗腦",其本身的自意識在對抗侵入的外意識.那外意識在"調教式"的強制其發出不應是動物發出的似人語類的"音節"....想到以前很多民間的"邪術"或"蠱術"往往都與爬蟲昆蟲類有關,以往人們往往把這作為一種工具類的"法器",其實會不會是那些意念侵入者初入門時的"練功"對象呢???先是基礎的昆蟲類的(在生物進化鏈中,昆蟲類是很關鍵的一鏈),再是大的動物,然後竟會選擇"人",,,由於民間的"誤讀",所以長此以往流傳下來的,那些"巫術者"的形象,往往是帶著那些蟲蟲蛇蛇什麼的?....想到80年代末,曾看到一則新聞,說是日本研發出把微型儀器搭載在飛蟲身上如蒼蠅等,從而便於竊取情報;後來在90年代初的第一次海灣戰爭時,又看到一則新聞說是美軍研發出一種能搭載在小動物身上的儀器,既能"控制"動物,又能不引人地竊取機密....我想,可能這些在當時也是一種如同上述之說的民間"誤讀",不管是有意還是無意,反正"它"想在歷史的長河中要留下點"印跡",以便被後來某些人所能正確"解讀"....現在,這類"技術"好像沒人關心了,,,可能以往的,也只不過是對手"預警式"的張揚,很可能在此上並沒有實際的進展,如同西方拍攝的那部著名的紀錄片"克格勃超常現象研究檔案"....好像古中國中,在邪氣功理論中,有"練功爐鼎"之說....不知通過動物的眼睛,看到的是不是與人所看到的有很大區別?......(2008年9月1日上午上傳)

(Chinese) post here backup

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冰凍三尺非一日之寒 ....


.序.

本來此篇文字應是較早一些時間就能發到站點上來的,但我還是“忍啊忍”,一直拖到現在,才按我原計劃在要搬家前才發。我可不想讓別人操控我的做事“節奏”,從而達到利用的目的,順勢拾梯而上──我的節奏我做主。

既然沒有現實的回報及過去之事明確合理補償的話,寫或不寫,以及寫什麼或不寫什麼純憑我個人性情及喜好──畢竟,我不是一個信奉“無償奉獻”的人。


我是無所謂的 但是我得告訴你
我是個很直率的人
而我預備很坦白的對你說
也許比所有你遇過的處在我這個位置的人都要坦率
lt's all right with me, but l should tell you l am a blunt man...
and l intend to speak very frankly to you...
more frankly than anyone in my position's talked to you before.
--- from movie "The Godfather II" .1974.



.話題的引入.

我真不知道,是我膽大還是他們膽大!!!──到現在這種情形,還在圍著我明目張膽的算計攪和,有意無意間讓人感到時時刻刻地“麻煩”,從而心情沮喪──可能令人心情沮喪有利於他們“洗腦”或“屈人調教”吧?!

引出此次話題之事件,暫時先擱一下,放在下一段再詳述。一直以來,圍繞在我身周的“此類異事”就從不間斷。不說較以前之事了,單就說近兩年到廣州後之事吧:以前在“棠下”經常到“棠德花苑”對面的一家當地小規模鏈鎖超市去買東西,特別喜歡豆製品櫃上的大塊形“麵筋”,當時我買時是3.50元/斤,後來超市(可能)被人合伙重裝修後,一下子漲到了5元/斤,現在廣州市所有麵筋供應商趁前階段漲價之時,又漲了,我這裡同和菜場已6元/斤了;我在南方醫院的“好又多超市”,剛開始時很喜歡那兒的一種1公斤盒裝梳打餅,好像是“萬利嘉或其他什麼的”廣州本地產品,只10.8元/盒,現在不知什麼原因已不見蹤跡好長時間了;同樣在那個“好又多”超市,很喜歡那兒的真空袋裝“燕塘純牛奶”,但現在也時常不見蹤影,問超市銷貨員只說現在此牛奶並不是天天有了,只有“燕塘乳酸飲料”;在同和那兒的“宏城超市”,剛開始時很喜歡那兒3升裝的“仙津可樂”,性價比很高只5.6元/瓶,但沒多久此貨就有段時間不見蹤影,現在也往往只有其他“仙津橙汁”什麼的,很少見可樂了;同樣在“宏城超市”中,剛開始時我較喜歡6.20元一瓶450毫升裝的“粵喜特香花生油”,既能炒菜又能和“甜瓣醬”之類的混起來拌冷面吃,感覺就象花生醬,性價比特高,且只比非特香的同品牌同容量的“粵喜普通花生油”多出0.40元。但現在由於眾所周知的食用油漲價因素,其普通花生油賣6.50元,但特香花生油卻高達8.40元/瓶,其漲幅實在超過一般平均標準,900毫升的廣州名牌粵皇調和油也不過從11.80元漲到12.80元(插一句,該處超市自我來後,有過二三次的鋪面陳設調整,且同時招聘相關人員,應該可能又是合伙散伙的關係了。寫此文章期間又去那超市看了下,哇,普通的賣7.5元/瓶,特香的要賣9.5元/瓶,而“粵皇調和油”900毫升的也仍是12.8元/瓶。不過我猜這可能應與超市的進貨渠道有關,其他零售渠道的我沒比較)。

最氣人的就數“豬肝”了,我燒瘦肉沒豬肝燒得好,且又喜歡吃豬肝。在剛開始眾所周知的肉價瘋狂跳漲之時,當肉價在14-16元高位時,我“正好”剛買好新電磁爐,第一次在“同和菜場”買時,豬肝是5.5元/斤;後來過幾天再去買時,變成6.5元/斤;當後來瘦肉價回落到10元標準位時,豬肝變成7元/斤;此處有個小插曲,當時我到離我家最近一個規模較小的“同和榕樹頭農貿市場”去買“豬肝”時,那兒的要10元/斤,哇,我問其他地方都是7元/斤的,瘦肉也降下來了,這裡怎麼10元/斤,他們說“這裡就是這價,且品質不同,進貨渠道也不同嘛”。這種價差一直持續了半個多月,直到現在,所有的“豬肝”價都上到10元/斤了!!!有沒有搞錯???一般的帶點肥的瘦肉也才11元/斤,且由於密度不一樣,同樣份量的瘦肉感覺上還比豬肝還量多些。

我不知道如果時間能倒流,事件因果能重演,如果我“正好”不到廣州或海口,這些事件會否重演???包括海口的“南方都市報”在2003年後期一次又一次地大幅縮減批零差價,以及報業集團的重組合併等(當時發生的這些“事件”,在海口的網友應是很清楚的。2003年4月我剛到海口時,經過多次找工作應聘後,發現自己一個人批報拿報賣報是個不錯的較自由的暫時維生之途;另,好像當時“非典”全國禁流動後,海南生活品物價也有一次普漲調整,但當時影響時間沒這次長,全國性的媒體哄鬧也就半個多月吧,不象這次歷時這麼長)......
If you live wide enough, you will find the truth, then let others believe, by FACTs.
--- from my web "Mind Control" --- modern technology or unknown world ?

引出此次話題的事件是:2007年11月19日星期一上午早8點多,我出門到“同和商貿綜合廣場肉菜市場”的早晨臨時菜攤想去買些“便宜菜”,沒想到,我一到那兒,那裡的菜場聘用的外地保安協管員,就不住聲地催促地攤販們清場收攤,說是“工商臨時檢查”。這對我有些意外,但也在情理之中,因我前幾次每次偶爾早上到臨時攤位來買便宜菜時(我不是經常來的),都會發現地攤傖促收攤的情形。當時雖然心情有些沮喪,但我不想隨意讓自己的思維判斷跟隨“心理暗示”的臆測。當天回到家後我決定後日21日早上再去那裡(因我20日中午要到銀行電信局等辦些事務,不想一日內跑樓梯2次,我住6樓呵),一定要買到便宜菜。買不到就繼續第二日再去,直到買到為止,我就不信早晨在外面的臨時菜攤,天天提前收攤!!!

沒想到,沒想到──11月21日星期三早上8時多,我到那兒時,那些協管員又在拿棍拿杠地催趕那些擺地攤的提前收攤,其中領頭的當場宣佈從明日起菜場外面的臨地擺攤暫停一段時間,具體開放日期待通知!!!由於我已在家打好主意,我向隨便的一個協管員打聽好菜場物業辦公室的地址,就直接到他們辦公室去看個究竟。我詢問辦公室的一個正在看報的正式制服工作人員,他說不清楚此事,早晨菜場臨時擺攤事宜,由隔壁的保安部人員暫時託管的。我又到擺攤的另一塊,向其他的協管員打聽,他們也說不清楚明日及以後暫停出攤的事。看來,此一決定並沒有內部人員全部知曉,由於連通告都沒在菜場的兩頭貼出,看來很可能是臨時傖促作的決定。
(他們或他們更上層的某些人或其他有影響力的人,好像早知我前幾日心里的打算了?!以前,我偶然幾次間隔地去時,也沒見他們這麼長時間的停攤啊)

當然,現在在這件事上,我是鐵了心要買到便宜菜。以後的日子,我是改變自己原先的作息規律,把原先晨8時在“華夏遊戲”中跑商的任務放在其他時間段(華夏遊戲那兒,初開始這麼早就在遊戲中擺攤還真有些不習慣,一些買貨老客戶還是以後慢慢才適應的),天天準時都到菜場那兒_ 一圈看一下,直到12月6日那兒才又恢復出臨時攤(在後期,由於那兒停攤時間太長,一些菜農都到菜場後面的居民樓夾道中擺攤,以及離該菜場只3分鐘路程的同和菜場外的馬路邊擺臨時攤。在暫停臨時攤位時的後階段,我想買便宜菜時都是去那兒)。


.真實的社會──不是紙面上、口號中的“社會”.


從上述截取的我的生活最最簡單的一個“切片”可知,洞一查百,我一直以來的生活狀況是如何的──包括過去的以及現在的,甚至可能將來的?!──真實的生活當然不只是消費買生活品一個環節,招聘、工作、興趣交往甚至網絡遊戲等各方面,都有類似情形。

可能,這個社會結構的“真實”操控運轉就是這種樣子的,
──沒有“公開性”,都是暗地里“攪稀泥”!!!

但那些人要“攪”就“攪”他們的吧,別來煩我!
──不過看來,“攪來攪去”竟攪到我頭上來了,我是那種“逆來順受”的性格嗎?象家里的老媽子一般。

我想起了以前我曾碼過的一些文字,找了一下,摘錄如下:(原件內容見網頁 http://www.bailingren.com/tanweekly/other_4.htm 的中間部分)

前幾天,曾聽一個人說起他追女朋友的“萬全之法”,那就是把女孩周圍圈子里的人都“搞定”,那這個女友就象孫悟空在如來佛的掌心中,跑也跑不掉了。
不知怎麼,總感到這種觀點現在很流行,一些媒體上經常可以感受到。一些精於此道的人,經過學校畢業後正式社會生活的洗禮,已把這當作洞悉世事人情的至上生活準則,不僅把它用於私人圈子的人事上,而且推而廣之,在公共事務的範圍內,也大行其道。
一個人生活在這種環境中,是很可怕的;而一個社會成為了這種環境,那就不只是可怕了。



(回想起來,由於我的“透明人”特質,各方人為了全面操控及利用我,從我很小很早就已經開始相互間“施展卡位”了)

“他們”是誰?“他們”想怎麼樣??“他們”到底為什麼呢???

以下是我的一些個人猜測:

1. 可能國家或某些利益(部門)組織知此事或默許,否則我身邊之事就說不過去,更不用說國家或有關部門控制下的電台電視台之事了(某些利益集團勢力再龐大──無論國內的或國際的──在中國特殊的環境下,應也主導不了電台電視台之事務吧!!!)

2. 也可能在發生於我身邊之事的“牽涉”中──包括過去及現在的──有些人感到“氣”不順,認為他們的“失敗”或“損失”與我有關。但他們不想想,當時是誰要求或命令他們涉入我的“事”的?當時或現在是誰“出讓利益”或別有用心地“提供間接支持扶持”而誘導其涉入我的“事”的??他們平時是對誰“負責”的???....且不論在他們“失敗”或“損失”前,相對我而言,享受了多少“既得利益”或“物質享受”....“得到”與“付出”總是要相“匹配”的,這才相對說來“公平”。這麼簡單的“事理”,他們都不自己仔細想想,根本就是他們不敢直面自己的“過去”!!!

3. 還可能,某些人他們自己或他們身邊親近的無辜之人,受到(或自認為受到)別人的傷害,而他們又認為我是他們對頭方的人,因此,不管三七廿一地把我作為傷害或報復的目標,在他們看來也是理所當然的了(雖然,他們也知我並無意且也沒實際操作能力來傷害他們)。他們認為此一操作在他們的遊戲規則中是“理所當然”的──這種判斷實在有違“邏輯”,照此“邏輯”,社會中豈不是要人人自危,世界豈不要大亂....當然,實際上也許我把那類人看高了,他們根本就是社會中的“無賴流氓”之類,盡拿些手下或一般老百姓的傷害來炫耀他們的“實力”,他們根本就不敢相互公開直面他們自己的對手,甚至不敢直面他們無辜的“受害者”──包括我!!!

我的一生已經給“他們”給毀了──
而且,由於“透明人”的原因,說得難聽點,甚至連“偷偷摸摸”或“偷雞摸狗”的生活也過不成,感覺上就象一個“戲台傀儡”而生活──這正是我本性所不容的──雖然,現實生活中工作場所的“傀儡”也很常見。但這裡的問題關鍵是:這種情形會延伸至我的私生活中、臥室中,甚至我的頭腦中!!!

反正,對現在的我來說,什麼都已是無所謂的。帶種的就公開地來吧,別一直躲在背後指使我的老媽或操控著各種“場景”來刺激我。
Everything we expose them to, their programs, their cartoons, books, the games they play, are designed to manage ......
--- from movie "The Island" .2005. (逃出克隆島)

值得一提的是:所謂此遊戲的“補償潛規則”。某些人往往把損害其他人主要是(所謂的)對手方相關人員,作為(或自認為)對以往損害我(或是其他人)的一種“對等”補償──但,這算什麼鳥屁“默認行規”!除了有意在下層人為“製造復仇對立”外,看不出有實質的意義;而且,我的損害已造成了,且往往是“人生階段”性的,再損害其他所謂“對方”的人生,對我有何幫助???翻過來,覆過去,前前後後其實都是“那類人”因應形勢而在實施操作──這對人類社會及制度進步來說,是一個很有趣的具有探索性的問題!


.“小鬼”──在上一代或上上一代中,高級首長(特別是軍隊中的)對勤務兵或身邊親近的年輕人的呢稱.

(“小鬼當家”──曾幾何時是較為流行語化的傳播。記得以前在東方台的一檔娛樂欄目中,有一個節目名就是“小鬼當家”....)

事過時移,現在“小鬼”的稱謂已越來越平民化或普通化了,一些“小鬼”們更是人小鬼大,特別是在某些利益勢力的背後撐腰下,開始走上“小地頭蛇”的道路──可能,這也是這個社會中某些人希望調教之結果吧,畢竟,在那些人看來,任何領域中出現的“力量真空”都是不能容忍的,地方上的“地頭蛇”也是這樣。

曾在我原先那個“倒霉的城市”──至少對我來說──的“新民晚報”上看到過這樣一篇文章,應該是至少十多年前吧,記得很清楚是在副版“夜光杯”的左上頂角。文章字里行間透露出,社會的撕裂暗戰應適可而止,看在社會的下一代的年青人份上。青年人在經濟失業及其他境況下──不管是有意人為的還是無意人為的──越來越陷入“攪稀泥”的爭鬥中......

──現在回過頭來看,該文章總的格調還是有些“書生氣”。

湯姆,你令我驚訝
若在這生命中有任何確定的事
若是歷史教了我們任何東西
那就是你可以殺任何人
You know, you surprise me.
lf anything in this life is certain ---
if history has taught us anything ...
it's that you can kill anyone.
--- from movie "The Godfather II" .1974.


“可以殺任何人”對那些“小鬼們”來說,可能太誇張或戲劇化,不太現實或實在。但“可以騷擾任何人或大多數人”,特別是在一些利益勢力的指使下,則是他們的專長了。

──在和平時代,一個無賴抵十個軍人。!@#$%^,暈~~~~~。可能正是由於不同無賴們之間對“下層結構”的控制的競合,才能使得上層令人“眼花潦亂”、“天馬行空”似的換崗得以實現。現實的真實社會不會是實行“一個招牌,兩套班子”的制度吧?!社會的標準管理體制可能只是處理些“面上的”社會事務,而“底下的”實質性的社會事務都“委託”給那些不同的“無賴們”了?!在這種制度下,老百姓的位置何在???

前階段在新聞中看到,某些地方如香港制定法規“在公共場所(地鐵上等)不能大聲打手機,以防聲音騷擾他人”;北京曾頒佈實行租屋生活作息規律的法規等等。很多人往往從表面上來看待此問題......當人民不懂現實中“真正”的手段(包括政治或其他領域中的)時,當選民看不透現實中的“本質”問題,他們的意向及立場被喧囂的表面上的“是非討論”所拋來拋去時,他們的投票意義將大打折扣---至少我是這麼認為的。

...... ......

其實,所有的這些都對我無關緊要。正如我文首所指出的:畢竟,我不是一個信奉“無償奉獻”的人。


. State changes everything, it changes me!

長久底層的“惡劣生活”改變了我,變得更實利了,社會中像我這類人也從不會回頭看的──不要怪我,人無完人。

I think I have the best done anyone could so done excellently in such a state of affairs.
我認為我已經儘可能做到最好了──在這種情形下,任何人所能做到的程度。

“...甚至連‘偷偷摸摸’或‘偷雞摸狗’的生活也過不成...”
我現在的這種狀況,以及過去受的折騰,某些人準備給我一個什麼樣的生活中的結果或定位呢?在某些人來說,“既成事實,就這樣吧”──就這樣吧?!那些人不想想,由於所有過去的日子,我現在竟能養成在大聲搖滾的音樂中“安然睡覺”的本事──不只是由於內部怪聲音的騷擾,更是由於外部敲敲打打的現實騷擾!!!──聽上去讓人覺得可悲,但卻是事實。

某些人不想想,我以後的日子應該是“每時每刻都受怪聲音的騷擾”(看來在可預見的將來,人類找不到完全解決之辦法),而且不計算外部的人為有意傷害──怎麼來補償或解決???
由於沒有個人隱私或個人生活空間,不僅在生活質量上大受影響,而且在可能的個人社會發展上,包括商業的、專業技術的或其他的,由於“透明人”的原因,在現在這種不擇手段、自由競爭的市場上,也不可能有大的發展。就我看來,可能只能在“怪聲音”的事件上,才可能是唯一我能全力去做,且能得到自己應得或世俗社會中通行的“獲得最大得益”的事情。

( face the former dead soldiers )
In the back of my mind, I was always saying,"Better them than me."
But I don't believe that now.
Now I realize there are some things worse than death.
--- from movie "Down of the Death" .2004.



“冰凍三盡非一日之寒”──對於社會的狀況是如此,對於我個人的狀況也是如此。

There are some things in this world that will never change --- my timeless cut is the one, and some things do --- my habit form is.
在這個世界上有些事物是恆久不變的──如我頭腦中無盡的傷口;有些事物則會是變化的──如我的外在喜好及性情等。

On my case ---
I hope redeem behind hurt done, and payment behind cost done,
althought it is "behind", but better than none.
我希望──
所有的傷害都能得到補償,
所有的付出都能得到回報。

最後,開玩笑地提一句,正如美劇“星際之門”(第4季17集 Absolute Power )中所說:
“鑒於我對人類社會作出的貢獻,我能不能提出一些個人生活的合理需求啊”
(笑話,不要當真呵)

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2008年1月17日於廣州



為免主文太過“深沉晦暗”,附上一則笑話,怡情雅趣,世人共賞:

曾在一些媒體上看到一個經典的“辦公室政治”的幽默笑話,我把它歸納為關於不公開的“角落里的對手”的一類型。不公開的“角落里的對手”英譯文為 Corner Enemy 。

兩個版本的“笑話”大致如下:

兩個人在酒吧中喝酒聊天,這時開門進來一個人,甲對乙說:“他是我的眼中釘”。那人走過來笑嘻嘻地與甲打招乎,甲也笑嘻嘻地回應著他。當他走後,甲對乙補充說:“不過他不知道他是我的眼中釘”。

兩個人在酒吧中喝酒聊天,這時開門進來一個人,甲對乙誇耀說:“那個倒霉蛋,他進公司後的倒霉是我在一直算計他”。那人走過來客氣地與甲打招乎,甲也客氣地回應著他。當他走後,甲對乙補充說:“不過他不知道他進公司後的倒霉是我在一直算計他”。